So if you're here and you just read the "About Me" section in my profile you're thinking "Trauma? What trauma?" (nosey!;) One day the time will come for me to share that story in it's entirety but, fortunately for me, this story isn't mine alone. I share it with three other souls that I walk through this life with each day and I must factor them into the equation. But, I will say this: My journey includes an angel baby in heaven, two separations, and a very trying chronic illness for my son. I was left feeling a bit like Humpty Dumpty, literally and figuratively. Somehow through the smiles and laughter of my two children (every. single. day. for an entire school year [insert cheesy grin]), the blank canvas of a cookie and a bag of icing, and not to mention the Lord's great mercy and favor, the sun began to shine. I'm finding a new me and a strength that I didn't know existed. I am more than a broken shell of a wife and mother. I can do anything, with Jesus by my side of course. Laudy help those without Jesus because...... just nope. I've said that for years. How in the world to people survive the &*%$ that life deals ya without something bigger and greater than yourself to put your trust and hope in? Well, they turn to alcohol, drugs, the run of the mill addictions........Ben & Jerry (Hey, you know them too?!). I guess I should be grateful that I picked up a pint of Ben & Jerry's Boom Chocolatta Core, affectionately referred to by me as simply "Boom," (Yes, I know its not gluten free. Shut up.) instead of a pint of vodka, but now fifteen extra pounds later and only 3 outfits in my wardrobe that actually fit, well, vodka has fewer calories.
But seriously, through therapy and my new familiarity of addiction I've self-diagnosed myself with a food addiction. Hopefully with the support of others going through the same things we can all slip right back into our skinny jeans together. In this eat-healthy-exercise-more all up in yo face society there's a whole lot of "eat this not that" and very little "Why do you keep eating that?" What is it in you that causes you to continue to make self-defeating poor decisions? I'm hoping that just publicly starting a conversation about it will motivate me. Now I wouldn't dare be seen at Kroger with Boom in my cart! My secret is out. Boom isn't just a little monthly treat. He's a friend that visits way too often. A friend that weighs 15 pounds that now lives on my thighs, hips, and caboose and he really needs to get lost.
I'm finding a new me in so many ways and I am so grateful. Removing this layer of extra weight that I've been hiding under is the final step. I'm a big believer in transparency and I'm excited to share this journey with you! Please share with me your trials and weaknesses and how you have OVERCOME or are currently overcoming. How have you rolled with the punches? I don't mean, your exercise routine or Plexus but where are you finding your strength on a daily basis? What motivates you to be a better you?........And if you're wondering about all those cookies, no, those really don't tempt me. I'm around cookies SO much that they lost their allure long ago. Maybe I should've taken up ice cream making.
Sadly, I've endured quite a few traumas in my life, but none nearly as big as my step-son losing his legs and nearly his life in Afghanistan 5 years ago. Shook me to my very core, tested my faith in a way I never imagined (and my marriage) and in the midst of all of that we made the statement over and over again..."HOW do people DO THIS without Jesus?!?!?". Hands down, no question, that I would never have survived with my sanity in tact without Him. I still have a long way to go, but he's brought me so far. I'm an open book, too. I've enjoyed following you on Instagram and now in The Cookie Chatroom on FB. I'm a retired (read...fell of the wagon) blogger, so I always love to go back to see the beginnings of a blog. Thanks for sharing your real...in this one. P.S. We're homeschoolers, too and I'm SweetHomeMonogramsAndMore on Insta.
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